After 10 days of recovery from what was a major shock to me. I would say the negatives have sunk deep down, and now the positives are floating on the surface and are trying to take me and fly...
My trip had somehow spiritual goals, more than it was an adventure!
I'm quite grateful actually for Mo, for several reasons, I would of never been able to do it without him. He was there from the very start and his thoughts and inspirations made all this come true. Even if he couldn't make it, at least he helped in making it happen.
I haven't felt lonely one bit through out the road. I kept having this feeling that all this is mine, and mine alone! the mountains, the deserts and the sea. All these cars flying past me are just passers by but i'm to stay, this belongs to me.
I had this goal when i started the trip and it was that i have to enjoy the presence i have to live in the present. Because now is a gift and that's why they call it the "present".
It was funny that i even discussed it with Pascal, the swiss guy who was heading to South Africa. It is true we are programmed to worry about the future and evaluate the past whether it is good or bad and just drop the most important part of our life NOW!
I have caught myself several times going back in forth in my mind and leaving the beautiful camp sites i was blessed with. I just would tell myself could u please just enjoy this and drop all that behind you! it is a tough excercise but it is vital i believe.
Now i'm cycling Cairo, like a madman guess i'm addicted to just riding long distances, may be it helps me focus on the present more, i'm not sure.
Hope i find a good source of money very soon that will allow me to travel around. It's what i'm trying to figure out these days, my job barely gives me a decent living, not that i'm not thankful, but i just wish i earn what i deserve...
It's really tough living here and have different dreams than what the common people have!
